Out of the House
SoCal Edison sent a notice in the mail to say they would be working in the area today, and that the power would be off for most of the day. I took this as an initiative for a morning at the beach. Thankfully the surf report called for large waves and I got excited. It's been forever since I've been to the beach to watch surfing, so Edison had great timing.
Time to Reflect
The morning drive started with some Rage Against the Machine. Once I hit traffic I switched it to an audio book about St. Francis. The topic being covered was a commentary on pride, and seeing our position or endeavors to be higher or better than others. It got me thinking about myself and photography.
As I arrived at one of my favorite beach spots, the Wedge, I was thinking about my pride, as well as how I haven't been here in forever. I used to come all the time, but with a mix of busyness and burnout, I haven't been around. Over the past several months I have been thinking and learning of ways to expand my photography business, always looking for new ways and opportunities. It's been a bit of a roller coaster ride of seeking advice, using social media, being busy, and then going through dry spells. Keeping pride on the mind, social media is tough. How does one show their work, share their passion, and not be a show off? My insecurity can get me. Am I sharing images and my life for "likes" and "follows"? If I'm being honest, yes I am hoping for follows. But in some ways, I'm noticing it changes my habits for passions in life. It's become somewhat of a mixed pursuit in finding what I like to do and photograph, along with the thought of hoping others will like it. Lord, help me lay this down, and not let the fear of others and my thoughts get in the way of life.
Present With Fear
As I was thinking and praying over these things, off in the distance I could see some fins bobbing in the water. The sight broke through my thoughts. It was a pod of dolphins swimming slowly by. Seeing them gave me some welcomed comfort. Seeing them, it reminded me of my fear in getting into the water. Part of why surf photography got burned out with me was because deep down I want to get up close, in the water. This requires expensive equipment to have a waterproof camera. It requires exercise to get in shape to be able to swim in heavy surf. Beyond those excuses, there's sharks in the water and I can't see them. If I get to thinking about it, I freeze up. It may be a rational fear, but it still holds me back. Seeing the dolphins instantly reassured me that no sharks are around.
After seeing the dolphins I felt something of a renewed confidence to have fun and move around. I went up close to watch skim boarders do their thing. It always impresses me how they can see waves before there are waves, and run out to them.
The morning was passing and I was glad to be out there without feeling much of a care. But I was getting hungry and headed to a spot nearby called Sessions West Coast Deli. It's great in the morning because it's not too crowded, and the place is grub. I've grown a passion and fun to photograph food, especially at my favorite places. This is an area id love to grow in my business and it requires me to step into where I have fears. Sessions doesn't disappoint in quality, and the dining area had an open seat next to a giant open window. It made for a good spot to relax for a late breakfast.